i have a new mantra
it goes a little something like this
i've put to rest and made peace with the failure of my first post-divorce romantic relationship.
one that i said i would never do not so long ago and one i did not take lightly.
last summer i wished upon a shooting star on a Nova Scotia night.
the wish i made was for someone to come along to love me and my girls.
i don't want to think that perhaps i was wrong in believing that wish came true soon after.
that a year later i would realize that it was not what i had thought.
i think the wish was a prayer...
that wish being like a prayer they say is answered, but in a way you did not quite expect.
in the almost four years since my divorce down deep in the messy part of my heart i felt that our life was incomplete without a husband/father.
as if i was denying my children the wholeness of a family of four. that we were somehow lacking.
i found something that turned out not to be sufficient and the wish, the prayer, the lesson i learned was this.
we are not incomplete. we do not need another person to make this family meaningful.
we are an amazing family right here, right now, the three of us girls.
strong, loving, committed to one another.
i don't need to wish for someone else to complete us.
we complete ourselves.